Saturday, December 12, 2009

Day 102



Day 102

Bridger’s spinal tap went well with no compilations. He never wants to eat first thing in the morning but yesterday he woke up and said I’m hungry. He had to fast for the procedure and didn’t get to eat until 3 pm. It was a long day. The pressure in spinal fluid was at a 27. It is in the normal range but had he been at a 28 he would have been in the high range. On Wednesday we reached our 100 Day. It was a lot different than I had anticipated our 100 day would be. Bridger was up all night in pain. We ended up in the Dr office all day. He ended up having ear infection’s so he is on a new antibiotic. When I asked him if he knew what day it was he said “what day”? When I told him it is your 100th day he said “I get to go home”! I hope soon ,is all I could say. That night we made pretzels in the shape of 100’s.

Today Bridger is very sore. At one point he wouldn’t stand up or move. His back hurts to bad. The pain even makes his leges hurt. I called the Dr. and asked if it was normal they said to give him Tylenol and see how he feels. It definitely helped he isn’t crying anymore but he is still very uncomfortable. We may end up back at the Dr’s later who knows.

Monday, December 7, 2009

Day 97

Bridger had his Dr. appointment this morning. The MRI he had last Friday showed nothing new. He does not have a tumor Yay! They think he has a Pseudotumor cerebri. It means false tumor. One web site explanied; “Pseudotumor cerebri literally means "false brain tumor." It is likely due to high pressure within the skull caused by the buildup or poor absorption of cerebrospinal fluid (CSF)”. It could be from one of is medicines. They took him off of that particular med and he is having a spinal tap done on Friday. Apparently when I asked the Dr if this could effect his vision she thought I was talking about his dry eye problem not the swollen disc. If it is not treated it can cause problems with his vision with worst case scenario causing him to go blind. The best case scenario is that it could go away on its own. Treatments range from med’s to shunts, which would drain the extra CSF fluid. Right now Bridger is not having any pain. Over the weekend he kept pulling on his right ear saying it was fussy. To him it unplugged when he pulled on it. He also had some tingle feelings in his head. When that happens he taps the back of his head with his hand. At least he is not in any pain. All we can do is hope for the best case scenario. Poor little guy, he is gong to have to count to ten once again for the anesthesiologist. Maybe he will make it past two this time?

Sunday, December 6, 2009




Here are some more snow pics. It was fun to be able to build a snowman. unfortunately by the end of the day all that was let was a Small ball surrounded by very green grass. Bridger built two other snow men just to knock them over with his sword. He then went around to all the picnic tables and chopped off all the snow/ice. He loved it.


He has been watching the movies Spy Kids and Spy kids 2 and LOVES them. Why is it kids can watch the same thing over and over? Anyway one day after watching it he asked if he could have a fake mustache. Ironically I had noticed at or Kroger's quarter machines (the ones you hope your kids don't see) they happened to have a machine filled with fake mustaches, and eyebrows. Bridger was thrilled with his and puts it on just to rip it off and say "It's really me I am just wearing a disguise". Too much Fun.

Friday, December 4, 2009

Day 94 and SNOW!

On Thursday we had Bridger’s eye exam. She suggested we try some new drops for his eyes that we can pick up over the counter. At the end of the appointment she saw some swelling of his optic nerve in each eye. This will not affect his vision but is usually caused by pressure on the brain. They didn’t go in to any specific reasons of why or what could be causing the pressure but I am sure you can make an assumption like I did. At any rate they made us stay for a catscan that confirmed the swelling of the optic nerve but only in his right eye. They couldn’t see anything that would be causing pressure. I asked the Dr. if this is something that he could have just always had? He said it was a possibility but they had to be absolutely sure nothing else was causing it. So they got us in this morning at 6:00 am for an MRI. The MRI will give them a closer look. They said if they saw something urgent they would call us today. So far we haven’t heard from them so no news is good news. We are a little concerned because obviously pressure on the brain is not normal. So if you could all send an extra prayer this way we would appreciate it. Bridge was in good spirits about going to the hospital four times this week but he really didn’t want to go under anesthesia for the MRI so I told him to just try and stay awake, try and count to fifty. He maid it to a whoppin 2 and he was out like a light. It was incredibly fast. When he woke up he found out it was SNOWING!!!! Yes it has been snowing all day here. We were told the last time it snowed here was in 2004. I told everyone that it was Bridger’s fault he because he prayed for snow last week. Today he said “Jesus answered my prayer, he loves me the very best”. When we got back to the trailer we had a quick snowball fight. Bridger was so happy and a good aim. Then we found out we had no heat. Our electricity was out and our back up battery was not working so we spent three hours in the office of the RV Center to stay warm. Half of the building had heat so we played cards. Bridger is the champion of the Matching game and Go Fish. Below is another post about Bridger’s past and how he has made it this far.



Ryan's Lyon

The Lion is on his bed.

After Bridger's Hospital stay in 2008 he recived a Lion from, Ryan's Lion Fondation. Below is Bridger's story to read about Ryan and his story click on the link above. Thank you Ryan for helping somany.

On October 1st 2008 our Four-year-old son Bridger started to run a fever. This was not a big surprise because it was fall. Every year of his life up to this point he had been hospitalized for a minimum of seven days due to lung related infections. This always seemed to happen in the fall and winter months. His doctors never diagnosed any chronic condition.

On October 3rd a chest x-ray showed that his lungs were in good condition, which was a relief. I was paranoid that he had another infection in his lungs that would put us back in the hospital again. So, this seemed to be good news and I now had hope that this was just some small sickness that would quickly pass. But things didn’t ever improve. Bridger continued to get very high fevers for the next 10 days. When his fevers would spike he would get the shakes and his fingers, toes and around his mouth would turn blue. When I took him back to the Dr. and they saw his appearance they became immediately concerned and sent us straight to the emergency room. For the next five days they ran a battery of tests and performed a brochoscopy. During this time it was first mentioned that he might have Chronic Granulomatous Disease (CGD).

In the hospital Bridger continued to go down hill. His vitals were erratic, his stomach began hurting and he became very dehydrated. As a result he had to receive IV fluids. This was very problematic because Bridger’s veins kept collapsing. The doctors decided to tap the IV directly into his artery. This is a painful procedure. While the IV was being placed, Bridger was whispering, “be brave, be brave” and he was. On our fifth day in the hospital his heart rate skyrocketed and his face started to swell. He was constantly complaining about stomach pain and was very thirsty. From an ultrasound, we found out that his gut had stopped working. Through that night his heart rate remained high and his blood pressure began dropping. We were admitted into the Pediatric Intensive Care Unit (PICU).

In the meantime, blood tests that had been sent out to a specialty lab confirmed a bacterial infection in his blood that had originated in his intestines. The particular infection he had was typical in patients with CGD. We where relived to know that we had likely found the source of the problem, but were very worried due do his present condition. They put him on three potent antibiotics right away, but he was still getting worse. Bridger’s body was going into septic shock. His liver and kidneys began shutting down and he got water around his heart. His body was shutting down. The entire day they worked at keeping him alive. We weren’t aloud to be with him until they were finally able to stabilize him. When we finally got to see him, he was fully sedated and we were told not to try to communicate much with him because they didn’t want him to be stimulated. He was hooked up to a ventilator and had multi-port IV’s in both legs and in his neck. He had as many as 10 meds going into him at the same time. He was a very sick little boy and there was no guarantee he would make it. Every hour in the PICU brought something new, both good and bad. His little body was pumped full of fluid and was nearly twice his normal size. His feet began turning a deep purple and black because his small blood vesicles had collapsed and cut off much of his circulation. We were warned that he would likely lose some of his toes and maybe even his feet. But this was a secondary concern at this point. The doctors found that the infection had settled in his gallbladder, which had become extremely inflamed. They decided to take Bridger to surgery and remove his gallbladder, but were concerned about his weakened condition. It was a risky procedure, but we couldn’t take the chance of having his gallbladder rupture because the subsequent spread of infection would likely have claimed his life. After many kisses and a whole lot of hope and prayers, they rushed him into surgery. A couple hours later, he had made it through surgery and a very enlarged, infected gallbladder had been removed. Following the surgery his condition stabilized somewhat.

Over the next few days the doctors worked on opening his blood vesicles in his feet. With a lot of prayers and excellent care his feet began to improve. The skin in the affected areas eventually sloughed off, but his feet and toes were saved. Many of the nurses thought this was a miracle. From this point the road to recovery was long. Bridger remained sedated and on the ventilator for about two and a half weeks during which time he turn five years old. As he continued to get better we would talked to him and tell him that we loved him and if he wanted to tell us that he love us he could squeeze our hand. He always gave a good tight squeeze. We spent many hours by his side reading to him and holding his hand. The rest of the time was spent praying. Eventually, the sedatives were reduced and he became more responsive. The first time we sat him up he couldn’t even hold his head up by himself. He had lost much of his strength. On Halloween we got to move out of the PICU to the oncology unit, where he slowly gained back his strength. Once strong enough, he had to go back into surgery to remove part of his lung that was infected and permanently damaged. During this time he was officially diagnosed with CGD. CGD is an immunodeficiency where white blood cells don’t produce hydrogen peroxide to kill off antigens. His body couldn’t fight certain bacterial infections, molds, or funguses. This is a very rare disorder, with only about 20 new cases each year in the United States. Luckily there is a cure for it; a bone marrow transplant.

He was discharged from the hospital the day before Thanksgiving. Bridger received his Lyon from Ryan and Ryan’s Aunt Marilee shortly after we got home. It helped us several times to have courage during the many follow up doctors visits, which required blood draws and other tests that were preformed as prescreens for transplantation. Eight months later with a willing donor and thousands of people praying and giving support to him, Bridger underwent ten days of intense chemotherapy and received his new bone marrow. He was hospitalized during the transplant for approximately one month and had a smile almost the entire time. His Lyon was with him during those long days and he hugged it tight whenever he needed to be extra brave. Bridger is now 80 plus days after transplant and getting stronger every day. We are out of the hospital but have visits a couple times a week. Before the transplant he told a nurse, “I am the bravest boy in the whole world.” I know his inspiring attitude and courage have been shaped by three things; first, his Lyon with it’s accompanying stories of others who have had to endure. Second, the love and support he has received from so many. And third, his faith in a loving Heavenly Father that will do what is best for him.

There have been a couple occasions since Bridger received his Lyon, where he has seen others who are suffering. The first thing he has suggested is to give them a Lyon. I know it has been a great comfort to him. May it bring you and your family the same hope, courage and Love it has brought us. From the heart of a little boy who understands, please accept this gift.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Thanksgiving 2009

Thanksgiving
We got to go home for Thanksgiving!!! It was a wonderful four days. We drove home on Tuesday. Bridger wanted to leave after the Dr. appointment on Monday but we had to give them some time to clean the house and we needed to pack. The drive home was very pleasant. I felt free, my mind had lots of time to think and ponder and it was wonderful to have new scenery. I mostly thought about how blessed we have been and how much we have to be thankful for this year. Ever year we make a “thankful turkey”. The tail feathers are made of our hand tracings with curled fingers and we write what we are thankful for on the palm. We add to it all month long and have a full turkey for thanksgiving. This year one of the things Bridger said he was thankful for was his dad coming to play every weekend.


Once we got close to home Bridger was so excited to see our blue water tower. It is very close to where we turn to go to hour house. It makes a great land mark and helps eliminate some of the “When are we going to get there” questions. At home Bridger squealed and giggled with excitement to see his Grandpa, and his dog Chester. The house was spotless, thanks to Doyleen.

Every day felt like Christmas morning. The excitement just never wore off. Bridger ran and ran anround the house chasing the dogs, playing with toys, and trying to find the computer room. (He only forgot the first day we were home) He ran so much he lost a pound and a half. Over all he was very content, happy and a lot less irritable, as was I. He was exhausted by the second afternoon but I didn’t want to make him take a nap. I didn’t want him to miss a minute of being home. I don’t know where the time went. It passed way to quick.

On Thanksgiving morning I ran a 5K. It was a YMCA Turkey Trot. I had to do it just so I could have a shirt that says "Turkey Trot". It was so Fun. I ran with a bunch of friends. It was my first race out side of high school track. The big difference is I actually enjoy running now. Blake couldn’t come like he had planed because at 4:30 AM Bridger woke up all energized because his dad was going be home all day to play with him. I tried to get him back to sleep, but he was too keyed up. When I said “Dad is coming with me to go run”, my heart broke watching his face that was clearly a refection of his breaking heart. So dad stayed home for the day to play. When I got back we all played some football in the yard. Later we had a fantastic Turkey dinner with stuffing to die for. It is Doyleens secret recipe that she will share if you want it. It was a perfect day.

On Friday I went shopping. I left a little late for Black Friday, but still got all the deals I wanted. Saturday went by way too fast, but I got to decorate for Christmas and it was so much fun. I have some awesome friends that took me out to Yogurt Land to celebrate my Birthday. I turned 27 on Sunday and I Bawled, I mean bawled all day. It started of with Blake and I missing church. I got it in my head that it started at 9:30, but it was actually at 9:00. We didn’t have an alarm and over slept for the first time all week. It was not a very good way to start the day. The rest of the day I was so upset about having to leave, caught up in wanting everything to get back to normal (which brought me to the thought of, do we even know what normal is anymore. Since June 2007 someone in our little family of three has had a major health problem and have been hospitalizes or had surgery of some sort. So when things calm down a little watch out you may feel a huge gust of wind from our sigh of relief.) I will admit it was my worst birthday ever. And I am sure I cold have changed that had I pulled my emotions together…..next year, next year.

After four hours of heavy rain we made it home in safety thanks to Bridger’s prayers. On Monday morning we were back at the Dr’s. Bridger’s # were lower, He as gone from 100% donor cells to 99%. They say it may continue to drop but they are not concerned at this point. They are sending us to and eye dr. because Bridger’s eyes are still very itchy and red. He complains that they feel dry. We go on Thursday and we will let you know what they say. We have adjusted back in to life here and feel blessed we had a nice place to come back to. We are blessed each day to day for an example our home in AZ we rent outs dishwasher motor died and it was going to cost just under $300 to replace it but the very nice repair man called whirlpool and got them to cover the part seeing how it is just over two years old. So our cost was only $115. That’s what we call a tithing blessing at our house.






Thursday, November 19, 2009

Day 79 Bridger’s sticky head

Bridger is doing well. We got to lower his meds again this week! We are still planning to go home for Thanksgiving and have even talked to Bridger about it. I think it is going to be hard for him to come back to Houston but he will have a blast being home. Below is some pictures of Bridger’s sticky head. He can balance books, toys and and anything else he tries yet nothing falls off. He thinks he is so tricky, and I am always amazed.

I was talking with my oldest sister today and we were discussing crazy things we have seen in the month of November. I saw a motorcyclist talking on his cell phone while driving!!! What was he thinking? If the words “what were they thinking” have crossed your mind recently feel free to vent here. (This is for you Em)
This is a knitting ring for hats but he put it on his sticky head and said “I am King Bridger” in a deeper tone.